i learned to look through different eyes
so scared of emotions they all got denied
covered up my identity
my hopes and dreams of being free
to break and to love it
to cry like i mean it
truly feeling my emotions
as the fuel on which my heart runs
cancelling the outer voice
love was a controlling voice
my whole life lived trough different eyes
so scared of my emotions they all got denied
never thought i would regret
the unconciously trying to forget
one covered up in sheets of fear
unavailable it’s all so clear
why does it take a lifetime long
to finally see where i went wrong
how am i not responsible
but forever totally accountable
it’s hard to deal with all of this
if i had only learned
to break and to love it
to cry like I mean it
truly feeling my emotions
as the fuel on which my heart runs
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